Life just isn’t the same anymore. We are living in a world of sadness of missing the kids and trying to continue living our lives the best we can as if nothing were wrong. We have 2 kids that need to have the life they deserve, carefree and happy. We have a life that needs to keep going… but we are so sad. So many days kind of go by as a blur and I have gotten to the point where I try to keep all of those feelings down so that my kids don’t have to be sad too, or know that we’re sad.
In that mess, we know that there are kickbacks from both angles. We know if we’re living our lives and having a good time, DB is shoving it in the girls’ faces that we are happy without them there. If we don’t do anything, and we sit around and mope, our kids suffer.
It’s a constant battle… one that I am so incredibly sick of…